Feel rejected from society?

2008-08-03T12:40:00.000-07:00

Do you feel rejected from society? -If so, feel free to share your opinions with me on this blog and also feel free to share how you overcame those challenges so we can share them with others and possibly promote some kind of positive change.

I'll start off with my reason for why I feel like I'm not a part of "Your-Society" or "Your-World" but you don't have to explain yourself in the same manner that I do. Everyone is different and it's only natural for me to expect that anyone who posts to this blog will be very different from me and have different reasons. Here goes:

I was born into oppression and poverty (compared to most Americans) and watching things like TV or seeing other people being happy in life always made me bitter instead of happy. I was bitter because I wanted happiness but it was denied because instead of my dad teaching me what I needed to know to survive, I was taught counter-productive things and my early childhood seemed to be filled with hate, conditional love (at best), excessive pushes to take this path or that path (like the Army which was not for me) and a general lack of understanding of things. I was abused mentally, physically and deprived of many things I would have chose if I was given the chance. All along while I had few friends, I played video games and watched TV that made me feel even worse.

I was bullied, lied to by friends, had friends turn against me, had people reject me because I didn't understand the things they understood, rejected and made fun of because my clothes/hair and so on. My own family seemed incapable of understanding me because I was incapable of expressing myself.

Obviously I don't want to blame them because they didn't understand that I was being taught untruths by each and every one of them from all sides at all times. They simply didn't have the capacity to know that I wanted to grow up to be an upright and peaceful person. They simply didn't understand me because I had yet to learn to communicate. Make no mistake I don't blame them - I blame the society that shaped them and everyone else in "Your-World". Or even more particularly, I blame the Ego-Dragon and Media-Monster.

I had to unlearn,
I had to learn,
I had to play catch-up in life beyond most people's understanding

I even had to put myself into an invisible protective shell of lies in order to survive through the most painful and stressful things. However, one day I learned to step out of the rat-race and renounce "Your-World"

You said that I can’t

You said I can’t but
I say I can and that I will
You said I can’t think that way
But I did and you know I did

You said I can’t say these things
But I did and you just heard me
You said I can’t do these things
But I did and you just saw me

You are a liar and you exalt lies
Because you probably think that
Believing lies protects you

You should change for the better
By opening your narrow mind to the truth
But since you still don’t understand
I’ll tell you again

You said I can’t but
I did, I will and I will again
It makes me feel good to be me
Every time I prove that you lie
And defy your primitive logic

There’s nothing you can do
That can ever stop me
Not today, not tomorrow
Not next year, not even after I’m gone

Your foolishness makes you weak
And my logic makes me mighty
I eat your kind for breakfast, lunch and diner

Who are you anyways?
To dare claim lies are true
Don’t you know that we’re enemies?
And we’re currently at war

I speak the truth
And you only speak lies

Close your mouth and open your ears
So that you might unlearn the lies
By hearing and accepting the truth

This is my life,
I’m taking a test in which I must pass,
You just tested me and I tested you

You have failed violently
And I have passed peacefully

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Feel rejected from society?